MS

I want to talk about another girl who I have been talking to this week from match.com.au. Let's call her MS. She is in her early 30s and living in the northern suburbs and like VJ she is a Filipina, although unlike VJ who is a recent arrival to Australia, MS has been here since she was seven years old.

MS seems to be quite inexperienced when it comes to the opposite sex, I don't know if she has had a long term relationship before. She seems a little naive and like all the girls I have ever met from the Philipines she is very religious and very moral. I don't really have a problem with this as I am not just looking for someone to have sex with, I want someone who I can grow old with. Also we are both the same religion, although I am not as strict a Catholic as I should be, as VJ is always reminding me that I should spend more time at church.
MS seems to be very intelligent as well, as she is in a very intensive and technical job. It would be goo to have someone with who I can have deeply intelligent conversations with rather than just talking about the weather and sports.

One thing I fear though is that MS may end up being a substitute for VJ. As I have said, I seem to have really fallen hard for VJ and my feelings have become a lot deeper since I have been on holiday from work. While I was away I had time to think about the things I wanted from my life and reassess the direction that my life is taking. The type of qualities that I am looking for in a partner are those that VJ possesses, such as her gentleness, kindness, sense of humour and just the way she is so caring. I'd hate to think that if VJ doesn't feel the same way about me as I do for her, which is what I fear, I may end up using MS as a substitute. (Hope this makes sense?)

I guess what this post shows more than anything is just how confused my feelings are at the moment and how I am unsure about anything and everything right now. Hopefully by the end of next week things will be a bit clearer.